The Matter of Getting Started.

There is almost nothing more terrifying to me then to reveal my thoughts. So, I am thinking I should start a blog for the sole purpose of revealing my thoughts, even if it would be half mad, and a little strange in places, perhaps even wrong, I really think it will be good for me. Who knows, maybe once I get my thoughts out into the open I will finally feel a little more comfortable talking to people. :-) Yet, I care too much about what people think of me. I like to be liked, I admit that, and I see no shame in being honest about it, not saying it is a good thing necessarily, but it is a matter of fact. I do like to be liked. Fear of rejection has always been a big roadblock for me, and I make no excuses for it, I don’t like it, it isn’t just who I am, and a blog, will be a bit of an mission into the territory of that enemy. The very act of revelation of the inner man would be a vanquisher of it. But, even I hide behind the mask, and I have a lot of mask behind which I hide. Mask behind mask at times. Perhaps it is time for a mirror, to see and to be seen, as I am. It is an idea that has been floating around in my mind for while, but I have to admit, I am afraid to actually pursue it. Yet, I should take into consideration that the people I am most comfortable around, the people I trust the most, are those who are the most honest, and the most who they are. Those who don’t hide behind the mask, but reveal themselves as they truly are. Nothing more, nothing less. If you’ve ever encountered someone like that, you’ll know how it is like a breath of fresh air after having not had any in a very long time, it is completely refreshing.