I need to figure out a way of talking to people and befriending them, talking with strangers, etc. I do not wish to hide behind it just being a part of my personality. Then let us alter it. I’ve already seen my body transformed, I have no doubt my personality can also be altered. I desire to talk to people, to share my thoughts openly. To allow myself to be open and revealing in my thoughts and even in my opinions, and to reveal to those around me, my talents.
I have to admit, I think some of the folks on YouTube are something of a role model of these things to me. Though I’m sure they know the pain of inner torments. I think we wouldn’t see such brilliant work if they did not have the inner dark-fire burning inside them. We all have our Voldemorts.
I must overcome the fear that holds me back and embrace the Dauntless fire that burns in my soul. I am a fire, I am dauntless, I have nothing to fear.
I really must concentrate on what it is that I’m desiring to be, it wouldn’t do to transform myself into a monster. We’ve seen men become monsters before, and will likely see it again before I die. A troubling, but true thing, if all men could choose the higher road, it would be a wonderful world, but some choose light and some choose darkness. What is your own choice? To live or to die? To rise above, or to fall so far? It comes down to my choices in the end, I suppose. We have a world where we choose one way or the other, some will choose the darkness, some will choose the light. Where will you stand? Consider it well, what is it to be a human being? An image, a living symbol, of God, and therefore, no matter what, to be human is a wondrous thing, a miracle in itself you could even say. We shouldn’t exist, yet here we are. To walk in the light is to be truly human, to fall is to lose your humanity. Darkness will take the soul of a human, and transform it into something so much less then what it was meant to be. I do not know if I can reasonably be ashamed of being human, when taken into consideration what it is to be human, of humanity, of our role as a race in the grand narrative of the story of the Universe, and beyond, it is amazing that we even exist. What other being, save God himself, has both a body and spirit? Existing simultaneously between two very different realms. I’m beginning to see why humanity is precious. I am coming to see that we are to see our fellow men as being precious, and yet, there is those who destroy, who harm. Which is why I must consider that we choose between becoming as we were meant to be, or to fall so far as to lose what we already possess. Our humanity. So, the question has to be asked, what is humanity? I do not fully know. But, I think I must see them as being something wonderful, and accept my role as being a part of the story of humanity. Sometimes, especially after darkness is revealed, both in others, and in myself, one wishes that one could transcend above it. But, we are, what we are, and what we are, is our greatest treasure. We should neither seek to cast it away by desiring to be more then what we are, or by becoming less then it. We are creatures in a realm of shadows, we live in a land that is but a reflection of a reality that is greater, we do not see things clearly, but through a glass darkly. We do not yet know, as we are known. We do not yet see, as we are seen. We dwell in a land of darkness, in a world that is but a shadow of what is greater. We may not understand fully, what we are, who we are, but regardless, I am convinced that if we see our fellow man as being our sisters and our brothers, we will begin to understand the truth that in the end, we are like men, and in realizing this, we will look upon the rest of our race with compassion, and pity, not hatred and disdain.
This is the world in which we dwell, a human world. And though it be a realm of shadows, we are still beautiful creatures within it, for me, to see my brothers and sisters of humanity, as something precious and beautiful, is to turn on the light.